lemme get brainy real quick
i was in love with t.s. eliot before i even found out he was a virgin until he was 26 years old.
his work reminds me of sitting alone on a train and watching the world pass by; you have no real connection to the things you see, and so they take on new characteristics. you aren't really engaged in anything but there's this stark, sad beauty to everything because it isn't yours. he's especially distant when he writes about women for that reason, describing them with a mix of yearning, terror and fascination that is most likely found in serial killers.
but if you think of eliot's work in the context that you're dead until you fuck someone, it starts to make a little more sense. until you've fucked, you haven't really been touched, moved or altered and you haven't really touched, moved or altered anyone else (bad sex aside).
you can be fingered every day of your life just to orgasm, but until someone is actually inside you, you have no reason to give a shit about them. until you get off of the train and engage the world, it's not yours. it's easy to write about things from the train, from virginity, but it's terrifying to jump into them. and once you bring fear into it, it's even worse because you should spend your life doing what terrifies you, not running from it.
so maybe you're just a ghost until you get off of the train. or get the dick. whatever.
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But what about hardcore dykes? They sometimes never have sex with men but they are still in lasting relationships with women. Some people have sex their whole lives and they are still dead inside. Ghosts.
that's a good point. raina said those are called 'golden stars'.
maybe you're dead no matter what side of sex you're on. or maybe it just matters what kind of sex you're having. if i bring a guy home from a bar, i don't usually feel empty about what i've done with them because i never slept with them. maybe i'd feel even more dead if i had.
sex is where death and life meet maybe.
Yeah, lesbians who have only had sex with women are called "golden stars." I think Raina heard that from the show "The L Word."
tombstone:
"bang me back to life"
HAHAHAHHAAH get out of my face with this shit before i rip your tits off.
girl - you are t.s. reincarnated - but his cock and balls were left behind.
I thought Central Square was where death and life meet?
I wouldn't know about getting it but do know about giving. This post is too deep for me ;)
Sex can be such a spiritual awaking for some peopl when you come together as one and feel the same level of passion you become one spirit, thus leaving the ghost behind.
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